What the? I'm bleeding out in the open...
There is this woman who will not get out of my head. Well, she herself is not in my head. She isn't doing anything on purpose to get my attention or anything. It's the thought of her that has dug its way deep into my mind, as well as my heart. Yeah, I love her. Well, that, or I have a rather annoying crush on her. Whatever the case, I'm mad as hell with myself for letting it happen.
Without giving too much away, I know already that an actual relationship will not ever come into existence with this woman. Because of this knowledge, I have been trying to get myself to stop caring so much about her, as utterly horrible as it sounds.
It's been a losing battle. I was hoping I could switch off that part of myself, that I could just walk away and be done with it. Only she just digs deeper every time I talk to or see her.
Damn it all.
So this leaves me with two options:
A.) Continue with the plan of simply resisting and trying to forget her.
B.) Fess up and tell her how I feel, get rejected, and scare and possibly hurt her in the process.
Ah, hell.
Without giving too much away, I know already that an actual relationship will not ever come into existence with this woman. Because of this knowledge, I have been trying to get myself to stop caring so much about her, as utterly horrible as it sounds.
It's been a losing battle. I was hoping I could switch off that part of myself, that I could just walk away and be done with it. Only she just digs deeper every time I talk to or see her.
Damn it all.
So this leaves me with two options:
A.) Continue with the plan of simply resisting and trying to forget her.
B.) Fess up and tell her how I feel, get rejected, and scare and possibly hurt her in the process.
Ah, hell.
1 Comments:
crazy how the heart works, eh?
Post a Comment
<< Home