Maybe I should go to margaritaville...

My birthday is Monday, and instead of the giddy, happy go lucky, "Look at me! Look at me!" attitude that I used to have, I'm in a strange mood. Sort of bittersweet, rather strange. I don't want to think about gifts, or a party. I'm hesitant about even marking it, it's like I'm in denial.

There's this song Jimmy Buffet released really hits a chord, pardon the pun...

Trip around the Sun
by Jimmy Buffett featuring Martina McBride

Hear 'em singing Happy Birthday
Better think about the wish I made
This year gone by ain't been a piece of cake
Every day's a revolution
Pull it together and it comes undone
Just one more candle and a trip around the sun

I'm just hanging on while this old world keeps spinning
And it's good to know it's out of my control
If there's one thing that I've learned from all this living
Is that it wouldn't change a thing if I let go

No, you never see it coming
Always wind up wondering where it went
Only time will tell if it was time well spent
It's another revelation
Celebrating what I should have done
With these souvenirs of my trip around the sun

I'm just hanging on while this old world keeps spinning
And it's good to know it's out of my control
If there's one thing that I've learned from all this living
Is that it wouldn't change a thing if I let go

Yes, I'll make a resolution
Then I'll never make another one
Just enjoy this ride on my trip around the sun
Just enjoy this ride ...
Until it's done